I've been posting my fiscal history on this blog. I have the last section to post and I will admit that I have been putting it off for a couple of reasons.
The biggest reason is each time I open that file I see MY mistakes staring ME in the face. I see where I have failed, I see where I made some really stupid money decisions and just stupid decisions period. And I don't like seeing me as a fiscal failure.
As I was writing the post, I started to wonder how much of my upbringing and non fiscal education had a part to play in my fiscal meltdown. I'm sure part of it contributed to my "fiscal hell" as I call the period before the BK. But what I see that slaps me upside my head are my own bad decisions. I don't think any of us want to admit to failure and in some cases, utter stupidity on our own parts.
I see those errors and I just want to crawl into bed with a bottle of wine. I really do. That being said, I will post the next chapter of my fiscal life. I am trying to consider it an exercise in how not to repeat my past.